A life story

Once upon a country time there was a teeny, tiny female bunny rabbit. She grew up enjoying a very carefree life, moving from bush to tree to hole to den, romping here and there with utter innocence and abandon. As such, she was never quite prepared for the bigger things in life. And when those oh so big things did happen, she instinctively reacted by freezing, holding her breath, and reacting from her tender, startled state.
This bunny was forced to make just a couple of big decisions in her short life, frankly, without leaning into the long vision of karma as short shortsightedness was her virtue. One was the decision to get married to her very first male mate after finding out that she was going to have a baby.
Well, this was a quick decision born out of necessity. Yet despite the imminent need for nesting, this mama bunny continued to meander, even without her mate, right up until the very day that her baby decided it was time to be born. The problem was that this was one month earlier than mama expected so she just ran in circles fretting and afraid.
The baby bunny was ready and exuberant, deeply wanting a warm, warm welcome into this big, bunny world. A welcome that would be just as fierce as her readiness to live! But poor Mama bunny was too distraught, too unready, too uncertain. The baby bunny was marinating in the mama’s atmosphere of unreadiness and inner confusion, beginning to question the timing of her own arrival.
So once the baby was born, she too was stunned, frozen, wide eyed, and in the thick of not trusting herself. Not trusting her arrival into life, doubtful of her choices, and feeling like an utter failure, all for arriving without her mother’s readiness. For after her birth, mother continued to meander sometimes leaving her baby behind.
As doubt and uncertainty grew, so did her inability to make choices, and the need to make everything rational and logical. She lost her natural, carefree bunny state and became very careful, always asking questions from other bunnies who were honest enough to deflect her questions and hop away. She even had a bunny hysterectomy – that is a real thing – so that she would not bring a baby into her own inner world of uncertainty. So, one day, this loss of connection with trust, intuitive knowing, and her body, got the best of little bunny.
She could finally see that her whole connection to mama bunny was through this code of doubt and not knowing as over time mama and baby vied for power by letting each other know what they thought was best for the other. Oh, this often led to long silent pauses filled with fatigue and resentment. The burdens had indeed become too great.
Yet, the baby knew that if she defied this way of being, she would break her loyal connection with mom! She must defy her silent agreement with her mama and become her own mature and sovereign self before it’s too late! So, the not so baby bunny wisely asked her grandmother to please, please give her permission and blessing to live life differently. Differently than all the previous baby bunnies before her so that she could live in the certainty of her own deep knowing, making timely choices and decisions without feelings of guilt or doubt. And grandmother did – from her heart she did!! She wished her granddaughter bunny a new way of being in the whole, wide world and the not so little baby bunny took this into her heart.
She turned to gaze upon her mother, grandmother, and previous bunny relatives appreciating the way they had learned to cope, survive, and live for eons and eons. She could take that too into her heart with gratitude and appreciation, and still become her own bunny self with a new way of being in the big, bunny world. It wasn’t too late after all.